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I know its been too long. Things have not been so good for this wolf lately. Besides the normal dwelling of sleepless nights and party filled days. Well lets just say my services are here for the taking. It is truly amazing on how the things that bring you what you feel as such discomfort when taken away hurt so bad. A sense of dis-order has crept into me. I can focus and now sleep much better but still not the same. I am trying to move this forward and bring what i know i can bring back to the table. I just hope for the support and meaning to come with it from not only others but myself. I grasp at what i can and for now i will go back to what i know works. it may take time to bring back all that you know me for and what i see. But know i am working to it. "I can no longer do for you what i can not do for myself. I can only do what i can for me to others. But for now I will be selfish and righteous and only do onto me."

With that, keep the tie going, and know that each one brings me strength. No matter how shitty it looks on Jesse.

I just want to see what i'm working with here

A fool proof plan. Have a few drinks. Stay up a little later. And sleep thru the night with no thoughts and no worries. Not so much. I shot out of bed this morning at 4:18am. I know the exact time because....well i'm not sure why i remember that. But i do. Damp, cold, and this time slightly shaking. I don't have an answer anymore. Sleep seems like a distant mirage that as i run towards it, it takes a giant step back only to leave me where i was. At 4:18am in the morning dripping with sweat sometimes the only thing you have is your thoughts. Funny cause thats where all this begins. I beat myself down. I get frustrated. I get upset. As you lose control you hit a point of comfort. Or at least I do. A point where you know this is the last emotion before you will be over it and willing to move on. Unfortunately for me my mind is not your normal processing center. It is a super generated, high speed internet, multi-tasking, super conductor power station...on speed, coke, and steroids. So you know slightly above average. As i run a mile a minute in my head i come to a thought that slams me in my tracks...did i turn the heater off in the garage. I can't sleep, my dreams are running my sleep, and i am wet. BUT NOOOOO my concern right now is the fucking heater in my garage. I turn off the heater because of course i am right. jump back into what i consider now my water bed and even if it was only for two hours..i sleep. No thoughts. No dreams. Nothing. Just sleep. Usually i have a nice quote or a connection with a smart and wise point. I dont for this. To whoever or whatever cause me to do that even if only for a moment, thank you. I can't disappoint though so i will leave you with a quote anyway.
"In thoughts from the visions of the night, when deep sleep falleth on men..." ~Job 4:13.
Maybe even he had trouble sleeping. If so maybe its not too bad after all.

My only friend the end

So my work day is almost done. the monster for now is at bay. Not gone. But doing what i desperately need to do tonight...Sleeping. I am not drained. I am not tired. I have not hit the wall i remember so. I picked up a good piece of advice that went a long way. Or maybe just another quote. To "use it as a tool." I have tried for two years to control it and suppress all that i feel and not say anything. Not let the darkest thought come out as for fear as what someone may say. That can not be anymore. i help it stay in the cave by not forcing it out. Purging myself of the evil or poison or whatever the hell you want to call it. The rant lives inside with this animal and i have learned to use that. Why can't this be any different. No doubt when i sleep tonight i may awake to the same breath. Same sweat. Same lost feeling. Maybe you dont have to go over the edge to know where it is though. Maybe just knowing your close is what keeps you alive. All day i have quoted the same man. Maybe you know him and maybe you don't. But in all likely hood you have heard of Hunter S Thompson. I leave you with this that i will hold through my day. "I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone,,, but they have always worked for me."


Good Night. And Good Luck.

Better. Stronger. Faster.

The thoughts come quicker and sharper now. I have a meeting in 26 minutes and am hating the thought of sitting thru it. Was hungry but not anymore. Its hiding i can feel it. Even after all this time it thinks i can be easily lulled to sleep. Rocked to the idea that i will forget and let a wave hit me. Paranoia hits now. Keep control my friends. If it starts to spin I will lose my handle. I go into the same thoughts of you know how this works. You handle it and move forward. You will bounce back and be just fine. Seems unhealthy. I have lived like this for so long now though afterward its a comfort. Almost an achievement that i am still able to do it. Terrible. I think how to destroy it and all i know is that its close to the bottle of a bottle. That last sip. That well i can have just one more to be sure. That stumble into nothingness. The lost emotion and push away of everything. The destruction of myself. The other enemy i fight in this spiral. Myself. The quick fix that brings a smile, a sense of calm, a moment to breath...followed by the chance of not throwing enough into myself that i am stuck in the dream for longer then needed. Just the thought gave me a chill and a small damp sweat over my brow. Then the question of are you ok?? Well i'm not dying. And I am not sure what ok is as i have not been it in so long. Normal...Not in a million years. But ok, yeah i can live with that. I have to believe that we all have these moments of what i will call inspiration. Well to static and noise i go. Wish me luck

Fear is just another word for ignorance

Even thru the day i can feel it in me. Its odd. To try to explain it makes this feeling grow. I get increasingly on edge. In a moment i care about and for nothing but in that same moment the feeling is to care and go mad over just that. I am no longer tired now that my day has gone on. It keeps me going. A cure? A solution? I am searching. My fingers go no where near as fast as i need them to be right now.I struggle holding a thought long enough to focus and put it down before the next 13 are running ramped thru my head. Why haven't i gotten it yet?!? Its all i want. I am forgotten. Lost and confused. Things are said but are they really meant. Why would you say that? And then this? It is almost in full swing and its a hard emotion to draw back once it gets going. It will make me go manic for the time being and then i will be tired again. Used and abused by an emotion i control and don't all in the same time.And then it hits you. Sadness. No rhyme. No reason. Just the mere thought of knowing. Why you ask? If i knew that i wouldn't be here i guess would i. The overwhelming idea that you can invest everything and only hope you are getting that in return. Darkness. Part of the enemy i fought all night is the one things i wish i could see now. The drug has not finished with me. Maybe it has only just begun. Maybe it isn't ready to go away. Maybe it never left. No needle in my arm but i can still feel the sting from the puncture. No drugs close by but i can feel the warmth of it run thru me like a warm drink. I fight. I keep fighting. I have to. That same smart man whispers another quote in my ear..."The Edge...there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over it." I can't say i will be back because i don't know. But heres to the hope that i am. Maybe with a different voice in my head. Or just my own.

Even the Devil Wears a Tie

Worse then normal. Probably. They have come back and i go sleepless again. The same dream. The same theme. The same people. The same end. For at least the past 2 years it has come and gone. Sometimes back to back days, sometimes a few in a row....sometimes a week and change. I can't seem to shake it. So sleep is a luxury i can't seem to afford. There are so many points in my life that i can control with the greatest of power. Both mentally and physically. I can lift my mood, control my anger, smile in the darkest of times. Yet this grabs me like the bad drug i remember. Its an amazing fear that creeps into me while i sleep... powerless... alone... unmanaged... The flutter of the eyes i am sure starts it off. A nice calm rest turns a switch to a dark and restless moment. Then they move as fast as light thru my brain looking to find that deep dark cave they left it in. Where i couldn't find it to throw out. Where i couldn't see it until it was too late. And it begins. It starts as any other calm, cool and collect. In the beginning as they do all i feel a sense of calming. And then it takes hold. The sweat starts to pour. Have you ever awaken to a wet head, pillow, blanket, shirt, and boxers all at once. I begin to move more and more. The emotion and passion run thru me like a needle in my vein. Sometimes i hit the event horizon and i can wake myself in time before the mind runs wild. Not tonight. I hit the black hole and it pulls me with such force. I struggle to wake up and keep thinking this is only a dream. I cry cause every time i wake up with tears. And without a moments notice or a moment to soon i spring forward and gasp for a breath. The dream is over. I am awake. If it were only that easy. In my sleep i can't control anything, while i am awake i control the entire thing. My mind runs wild. did that really happen? Was that just a dream? Could it be true? Could i be seeing things I'm not suppose to? Paranoia sets in. Deep as it always does. Followed by anger, sadness, regret, doubt, sadness, warmth, understanding, hate, fear, loathing. Hate. The only true time i feel hate for something is when i think of myself hating anything or anyone. Daylight comes quickly which is not a surprise. It always does when you just want to feel the darkness. For now my insanity is within and i will keep it at bay. but its early. A great writer once said "You better take care of me Lord, if you don't you're gonna have me on your hands". Some laugh at that quote. I say when you fully grasp it and not only say it but use it as pray. Then find it and truly think of what to or not to do.

Torture you...Thats a good idea, I like that

Green button down (almost mint i suppose) dark blue and green striped tie.

Got about 3 hours of sleep last night. Everytime I closed my eyes it just wouldn't happen. So needless to say today I am beat. But the tie will carry me along today.....I hope.

So after a nice dinner last night me and the little lady happened to notice a concert going on in the same building. When i asked what it was i was tickled like a pig in shit when i heard the unmistakable kick of the double bass drum, the needless but masterful screaming into the mic, and the crunch of bodies all in front showing love for the band.

The band name escapes me right now but no worries I will be pluggin!

Anyways, me with the button down and tie at the metal show. Now if there is an opposite of the tie i do believe its the spiked collar. But yet again the tie won't be denied. A few looks as i walk in and stares in the pit but nothing but pats on the back, fist bumps and a few "atta boys" from my metal brothern. But what i notice is not the smiles and hellos and genuine good these people show not only to me but my girl. I notice not once was i asked about the tie. They looked straight past it and right at me.

Sounds crazy but i can see why. All the stares they get for the shit all over their face, or tats up and down the body, or that gapping hole in the ear. Granted its a different wavelength but its their own personal tie.

We all have a tie on. Its just what degree you show it. JDub if your out there much love and respect! Killer show and I hope to see you again soon. And as he so charmingly put it when he said good bye to us last night. "See you motherfuckers later, and fuck the suits"

Spoken like a true tie

I am not sure if he's really going to pay for them or not

Good February! Here is yet another chance for that special someone in your life to show you just exactly how much your worth. Never by true emotion or complete love. But yes, as all you women know and love, by the power of the dollar!! Its one of the (what seem to be 30 or 40) times a year we as men go out and try to guess what to get to show you really how much we care. Now i know the flowers and the candy are always welcome, but so over done its really kinda sad. Now jewlery is the best because i always have a few extra hundred dollars that i can drop on something that you may or may not wear 3 to 4 times this year. My real question is where is the man's version of this day. When is it our time to be spoiled. Of course you will get the atypical girl response of "every other day of the year is your day." And well i dont see me getting flowers or candy any of those days, do you??? I guess the point is to look past the gifts you may or may not get. Days like this should be spent quietly together. Doing things you both enjoy together. Whether its a nice dinner and a movie at home or a luxury trip (if you can afford it)where its couples massages and such. The true point is to be together for a day where the TV may or may not come on. The dishes may or may not get done right away. And most importantly the time spent may or may not end. Dont make it a point to get the best gift this one year. Instead show them what it really means to love by giving them a small gift for the next 50 years. Thats the true gift we all search for on that day.

After a nice weekend where we met a new canidate for friendship I feel energized for the upcoming month.
Shes a TEN! SPLIT"EM! Merry Christmas!

Wear a tie, more posts soon. And as always make sure when watching tv to check the guide and always be live not recording!

I L L - I N I !!!

As of last night i truly believe Polo and I are going insane. The tie has consumed our thoughts and spawned so much. All of it from a piece of cloth. What started as kind of a self help has turned into its own little monster.

I mean really George Michael, Phil Collins, and 2Pac. If thats not cause for concern I am not sure what is then.

I know I am making it out to be such a bad thing but really its not. Not at all! It has helped in more ways then i would have ever thought possible. And its inspiring not only me but others. Maybe i won't change the world but maybe i can have a positive affect somewhere here.

I dont know where all this will go. And honestly I can tell you i have never been so anxious to find out. So come along and watch 3 men and a little lady go out of their minds and maybe a few moments of hilarity will inspire you.

Wear a tie.

And yes to Tony's sister. I loved the illini tie and found it to be the best gift Tony has ever gotten! If you should ever need another brother to send ties to or for that matter a younger boyfriend. Just know a woman with your class and knowledge i could not resist. Tony has informed me of your current marital status though so another brother for you and my first and only sister ain't too bad at all.

Sorry Tony I couldn't help it.

The greatest author I know

At 92 JD Salinger passed of natural causes at his home in New Hampshire. If you know me I am quick to tell you that I have not finished many (by many i mean a handful) books in my life. But you will always hear me say my favorite was Catcher in the Rye. The world has lost a true literary genius.


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An apple a day

After a lot of thinking and a few sleepless nights I have come to one conclusion. I hate my job. I know before I loved it. And there are still plenty of parts that i love about it. But instead of helping people achieve their goal in buying a home or refi'ing to pay some debt down to get in a better position. I now feel like a drone. A zombie with a tie. I want to break free of this mold but in these times its so hard to make that change. I miss being happy to come to work. And happy to help. Now from the moment I get in I start the countdown until i leave. I hate it. And here I vent and when we tape and the ideas that come from a 2010 YOTT when we talk...theres happiness. Maybe one day i can figure it out. Maybe it will get better. Maybe I will make my mare on society and I will get the fame and happiness I want. Or maybe I better get to work so I make quota.

I would have liked to take a trip to Tieronto

The Allen Show

I dont know why but the sudden urge of depression is all over me this morning. What have i done. Nothing. What did i say. Nothing. I just feel it. A sense of loss maybe? but i have lost nothing. What is this emotion. What is it that flipped this switch? I dont know either but i have to figure it out. days like this destroy all parts of me. I just wish i had what it was i needed. and that would be......who knows but i need it. with that i leave you now. but i hope to be back soon.

Nij Erifas....Get it! Yuhck (Adjust tie here)

I awake to the brightness of morning and the frost of another day. A smile on my face, yet still lost in my own space. Its been a while but for good reason. One, news cycles run about 48 hours and after a vacation it can be hard to double dutch back into it. Two, I be drunk sometimes. So here with more bad news, bad jokes, and overall just bad...your buddy and my 4th of 5 personalities. Safire Jin.

Some of this dates back a day or two but you dont care do you? Didn't think so.

CNN reports there are photos that prove of Glacier Meltdown. The Himalayan Glaciers are slowly melting one report says. Yet there are no true measurements that they can give us. So 1, they have pictures but appearently they left the ruler and math at home. 2, ice cubes melt. The End.

A report from Drudge states that Haiti has thousands eating, sleeping, washing,and deficating in open camps. They should be thankful Americans pay hunderds of dollars at Club Med for that and shitty food.

The I-Phone has come out with a new application that translates babies cries for parents. They can decifer 5 distinct yells; hungry, annoyed, tired, stressed, and bored. There was a 6th but the makers of the I-Phone didn't feel "Just being a needy bitch" wasn't appropriate.

Speaking of balls.....

A bowling alley owner has been charged with arson after setting fire to a rival bowling alley. (pause to prepare for bombing) When asked the local police said it was easy to "pin" it to him. They also stated the crime seemed to be right up his "alley". When asked how he felt after being arrested the man said "I feel good. It feels like I have had an 8lb ball lifted off my shoulders".

This just in, Gay teen Worried he might be a Christian.

And finally, Holiday Inn has started a new service in 2 of the largest hotels they own in England. Human Bed Warmers (I can't make this up kids). A hotel employee wears a full body fleece suit. Climbs in your bed prior to laying down and warms it up for you. Researchers show that a warmer bed does help so I am sure your asking why not heaters or extra blankets. Me too. Either way with that program installed Hilton has announced it has 3 new programs to counter Holiday Inn for their guests to take advantage of. The toliet seat closers, The tampon removers, and the check for an adams apple before buying program.

You will soon get to see Mr. Jin live on the web. Stay tuned for that.

1\5 of vodka, puke on Debra's desk. Pass out in the sewer, meet a giant fish. Harassment lawsuit, No promotion. Wear a tie, suck a dudes di....nevermind

I Love Oatmeal!

So as i have been out of the news loop for some time now it is going to take me a moment to really focus on giving you the type of programming and broadcast that is true my heart....lmao. Ahh like i care what you people think. News will be here later today so keep checking! Thats an order

PS
Jesse mom called and said Santa is not really and wera a tie.

Can you wash your clothes in the dishwasher?

HHHEEEELLLLLLLLLOOOOO!!
As i have made it back from the frozen tundra all with TEN fingers and TEN toes i reflect back on the weekend. And oh yes a tie was worn. Being in the middle of no where with nothing but beer, guns, booze, 4 wheelers, and more beer kinda makes you look at life a little. The normal day to day life from here to there is amazing.

As i am sure you are all excited about finally getting a news update from your favorite Safire Jin, today is not the day. Tomorrow we being a whole new beat of fresh news.

Tonight I must relax, drink more, see the friends and make world peace. For now....

Ask not what your country can do for you, but why the fuck you don't wear a tie more often.

OK But Can She Cook

As i wake to a small bright light peeking thru the window i realize this isn't my room. Worried. Not one bit. After an evening that i would like to forget, i had a night to make up for it. I made the observation that last night i wanted to have drinks until i was drunk. not regular drunk, but old man drunk. Mission Accomplished. I feel great this morning. though i believe thats due to me starting vacation today. (Crowd groans)I know many will miss me and no one cares. But thats the best part, it dont matter. So here i leave you with a few tips as to how to deal with the lack of allen.

1 - Pray for rain
2 - Start a stamp collection
3 - Help people in New Orleans
4 - Have a Jimmy Dean breakfast
5 - Make up a bad joke that only you and 2 friends will ever find funny
6 - Discuss how poverty both helps and hurts the global market
7 - Plot an attack on Rachel Ray to steal all her kitchen equipment
8 - Read a Book
9 - Enjoy the madness Conan is putting out there (Bravo Conan)

and finally

10 - Wear a tie

TEN, good luck and god bless. Help Haiti. Text 90999 and donate $10.

PS
11 - WWW.2010YearOfTheTie.Blogspot.com

.....How Hot Is It??

So its just shy of 4pm here in Allenville. And for some reason I have snapped. Concentration = Zero. Focus out the window. Patients dwindeling by the second. Very antsy all of a sudden and really not liking it.

I dont really know what happened. It was like a drug that slowly has taken over. I felt it earlier but now its here full blast. Could it be that moment right before the collapse of my mind. I hope not. That would suck to have it here at work. My last memory is that damn copier in the background slowly going.

I will take a breath. Pray for rain. And hope this passes. If not......expect the worse tonight. Lord knows i will

We were somewhere around Barstow on the edge of the desert when the drugs began to take hold

Let me start with this. I am not an expert nor nearly as well versed in tie coordination, color scheme, or style. Heres the deal. 2010 YOTT posted on a commerical in regards to the tie outside the sweater vest. Now in my simple mind i see no problem with it here. i mean the man wants people to notice the tie and they do. it is still doing its purpose by being around his neck accenting the shirt ever so slightly. The sweater vest is more or less just that with or without the tie. tie in front or back of the sweater. Now i did not notice if the vest was a long or short sleeve. In that case i must amend my statement by saying only short sleeves on the vest are acceptable. also only light shirt with dark vest combo's (dark shirt light vest just looks like shit). and NO bow tie. with a sweater vest you might as well put a sport coat on too with a pocket watch and throw a few more accessories on there while your at it. So basically keep the clutter down.

Man i am really picky about this and it all started with a rant on YOTT. has the tie brain washed me. Is it slowly picking away at my layed back attitude and replacing it with morales and stuck up values. Is it forcing me to have an opinion. Well this sucks how am i suppose to flip flop then.

And.....Scene....
Room darkens. Fade to Black.

Safire Jin and The Temple of Doom

Well I hate to carry bad news in double but i have to tell you all. 1, I will be leaving for vacation on the 15th and that will be my last post for a week or so (awwww) I know crushing. 2, the reports are true Jay Leno may be taking my blog over.
And their at the post....And were off.

Earthquake alert. Haiti had a 7.0-magnitude earthquake Tuesday evening. At first report I must say didn't care much. As the pictures have rolled in...truly unbelievable. The amount of damage i can't even describe in words. Now my normal format would be insert joke here but this is truly a major catastrophe and i wish all of them the best.

So Mark McGwire lied and took steroids. So you mean the enlarged head, massive muscle build up in a short period so late in life, and shrinking testicles were all because of those and not just some random unexplained event. And here i thought maybe we could chalk this up to Global Warming..or I mean Global Cooling...or whatever it is they want us to believe this week.

Astronomers are baffled by a mysterious object that will fly past earth Wednesday morning. They are thinking maybe its space junk or a tiny asteroid. The size is in the range of 33 to 55 feet wide at most....Ok maybe throwing or trash into deep space can cause problems. That or the aliens are as smart as me and they are launching their trash at us. Damn foreigners.

A Chicago Alderman is declaring that the hugely popular movie Avatar is portraying Marines in a bad light. He states it makes them look like "lunatics". Now i dont know if any of you know any Marines but i do, and guess what. THEY ARE FUCKING LUNATICS. Thats why the are Marines. I mean really?!?! You think i want sane Johnny Juno storming the beach killing the enemy. No I want Scotty "who beat the janitor up for eyeing him wrong in 3rd grade" Kramer killing them.

And just a way to go to Conan. Don't take the mans shit! VIVA LA REVOLUTION!

And finally, MSNBC has an interesting piece on how the rape charges against David Copperfield have been dropped. For the past two years there has been an investigation that a former Miss Washington contestant was sexually assaulted after one of his shows. Now this guy can make the Space Shuttle (THE FUCKING SPACE SHUTTLE) disappear but he can't pull off a little touchy feely on a woman. I bet he could have sex with his whole crowd and no one would even know.

Tiequila anyone?

Safire Jin 10:02

Another slow news weekend. They need to work harder at getting me good news over the weekend as to not upset my massive fan base. So as we always do on a beautiful Monday morning....Lets go TEN! I mean and now your local news.

So you think Avatar is only a great movie, well i suggest you think twice and then again and even one more time. Drudge Report has a story for all you do it yourselfers. The worlds first Sex Robot has been unveiled. Thats right Roxxxy (nice play on the name) is coming to town. With 5 different personalities I am not sure how this will make my fantasy come true as my current girl has more then that. So really not much of a draw there.

And you know since its my most favorite topic in the entire land right now... The National Environmental Satellite, Data, and Information Service (NESDIS) reported that December 14th was the coldest day in 115 years....I fucking hate the weather.

Just as a quick side note. You know how pissed I would be if I was Conan O'Brien. Push my time slot back because your "cash cow" couldn't cut it with his great comedy and sense of humor against The Biggest Loser and re-runs of Friends on Galavision.

This just in from Drudge. Global Cooling may set in for 20-30 years. OMFG!!! Global Warming. Global Cooling. How about a tall glass of Global Shut the Hell Up.

Breaking News: Illiterate Spirit Frustrates Ouija-Board Players

And the good lord looked down on Moses and spoke. "Moses I see you are looking for answers". Moses replies "Yes my lord I am". Then at the top of his lungs, with an echo through the valley of the plains and the mountain tops of the great Alps the lord said "You want answers! You can handle answers!" Moses yells back "I want the truth!" To which the Lord pauses and asks but one question..."Didn't I ask that you wear a tie when you address me!"

Even the Lord liked a good windsor.

Just do the one in the middle

watched fight club again. not good. great movie but not good i am still up. how about tieburrcurelowsis. tough crowd. tieler durdin was much cooler.....yikes....so now is when i fall back on my its cold rant.

rock on Chicago

Ladies and Gentelmen Please Fasten Your Seatbelts, We Have Lost Cabin Pressure

As i am sure all one of my fans knows the tie alone has brought me a good thing. Hope? Emotion? Feelings? Who the F knows. What I do know is it helped.

Last night i was confronted with my first, i guess you could say, test. Friends of mine cameback to the house and we were all ready for a nice round of what i like to call Allen Loses (a.k.a. Beer Pong).

Before it starts i grab my notebook and pause. Do i dare open myself for this?? Do I let the outside world into an idea they might not be ready to understand?? Or an idea that maybe I am not good enough yet to convey. Maybe I need more time to prepare. Get my confidence. Find my stride. Of course not. I feel the confidence pour out of me and just start into it. I hit them with the Super Abortion Clinic....Silence. I give them the Reagan Leading the GOP....Crickets. I step back and go to my fall back plan, So its cold outside....Iraq was bombed less then I was getting.

Flat. Disappointed. Hurt. Unconfident....I lost. I lost it all.

We started playing the game and I laughed and had fun. Great time. But in my head all i saw were their blank Hindu Cow stares. It shook me. Not as bad as it sounds I know. Not even that bad at all. I mean these are my friends and they will support me no matter what.

As i sit here alone with my tie i wonder. Is this gonna work? Do i have something here or is this more or less a play in my own head that has a final act and its a brick wall. I pick myself up and stand for a moment to take a breath.

As i stood there i couldn't help but notice I fixed my tie. It had shifted when i stood up and was crooked. But now it was ok. It was right.

Stupid as it may sound in that moment everything flashed. It is right there. I'm out of line. I am crooked. I need to fix myself and all will be right again. And it is. I am ok now. I am right. Call me crazy. Call me stupid, but right now I am in line. So read on, make a joke, don't laugh. I don't care. I have it now. I get it. All i have to do is stand up, fix my tie, and all in this world WILL be right again.

Read a book, Buy some land, brush your teeth, wear a tie.

Safire Gin Over a Billion Served

Good Morning, Evening or Night depending on when your slack ass is reading this. As usual I am here to bring the funny so prepare to be as disappointed as Jesse's girlfriend is every night

First lets hit the report on the breakdown of communication or lack there of during the attempted bombing of the airplane on Xmas. Or as I like to call it Really?!?! You mean to tell me that our government couldn't tie all the pieces together on this because of the lack of communication, no oversight to pool all the information, and no clear direction for follow thru. Ok i buy it. I dont know whats worse the fact that not only do i buy it but it seems logical. Or the fact that it sounds oddly similar to the same company i work for. Isn't it ironic, don't ya think.

And yes people it's still snowing, cold and icy. HOLY SHIT IT'S WINTER. Really?!?! Now i am just really starting to get annoyed by all of this. Everyday the same top news. Its cold, more snow, dig out, ice coat.....(deep breath). If i have to hear one more time about the artic air mass spreading across the US and how deep south its going i swear to god I will find Tom Skilling and junk punch him. YOU KNOW WHY!

Happy 75th Birthday Elvis. Question....When you popped all those pills did you every think your big claim to fame would be a bunch of you's sky diving out of a plane or any fat ass with a shakey deep voice saying "Thank you very much" after every stupid thing they say. Just wondering.

Thank you drudge for this gem. "6'10" Girl could redifine women's basketball"...Now let me say first I love that men and women have equal rights especially in the college world because that helps provide scholarships which in turn help provide better education for all not just some. But let me make this clear, until they start a topless league I ain't watching shit. I know they are skilled players who on the court would make me look and feel like the dead ass bones of Mother Teresa. It's just boring. To me at least. You like it great rock on and buy the jerseys. For me until they throw the jerseys out or start playing all in KY Jelly. I'm out.

I would like to send a prayer and a god bless out to Artie Lang. Genius in comedy and hope to hear him again soon.

And finally I have seem a few places talking about Mariah Carey and her speech in which she may or may not have been drunk or at least under the influence. Let me start by saying if I hear "All I want for Christmas is You" one more time I will cut my ears off. So a fan of her music I am not. After a year of Kanye being an ass and others always giving a political message that they want to jam down your throat, I thinks its refreshing. Go to the a big event, tip a few back, get your drink on, boom you win something and now get up there and ramble. Personally I loved it. Then again with a body like that you could discuss every period you ever had in full length and color and I would still be captivated.

Get ready to see video of these rants soon. Not sure where or how but i'm sure my agent has that planned out already. So if your famous and want to be seen in a 30 second clip with a no name talentless regular person.....go fuck yourself you stuck up snob.

2010 year of the tie = bad yoda and star wars jokes....but still love it

Quick Note

I am hoping to get my hands on the report our president is releasing this evening. If i can get that you can be assured a good reaction.

Suck my snow tires grandma!!!!

So i dont know what pisses me off more. The amount of snow we are getting (not just snow in general) or the idiots who think that doing 50 then slamming on their brakes to screw everyone up and almost kill us all.
I mean we deal with snow all the time. We all do 35-40 and be friendly. Let us all merge and boom we cut off 45 minutes of that commute. But NOOOOO. Douche bag in his 50,000$ SUV and his starbucks, reading the paper, talking on his head set, while getting the latest updates to his stocks on the touch screen panel that also plays DVD's for the kids in part time.

But i take a breath and realize something. I made it to work safely. No dings or crashes. Only to see the loan system we use is down.

FML. Heyheyhey.

Damn my tie still looks good.

6 cups 1 beer.... the difference is

So as i start this i take a fact from someone, that i type as i think and rant as i rant. Sorry for lack of commas and spelling but maybe there is a point. so off we go.......

for the first time i am at a loss for words. i found something tonight that maybe i lost or maybe i just mis-placed. maybe it never left or maybe it just came back. and for all you locals no not jesse on vacation. but something more.

gimme something gimmie something gimmie something brand new do you like the way i look or just the look i give you. its now hard without a camera. i have so much to say and not the outlet i need right now.

people need to know what you say and what you mean are the same. i wear my tie and no its not saving me. helping???? i would hope so. Or so paula says so. to close to home? maybe. but if your reading this at this point then you understand.

first know my advice and words are just my own and i expect and confirm no change needed. its good to know you can change and help in the same breath. i feel as if i got a breath of something new that breaths into me and gives a breath to even just one person.

what can we do about this rant that you have Al??? Can you control it? Can you keep it for a duration? Can it hold a test of time and power?

the true question is can you handle it. can you hold on to a point of view that allows you to bend at my will whether you agree or not? freedom of choice? you have it all.

to all i say hold what you have for it is special.

let go of what you have lost because it makes you who you are now.

and move forward with what you have in front of you because its the only thing that you can truly see.

with that its short and sweet and i hope one day we all take a breath together. cause that is truly the only way to move this, that and the other thing forward as one piece.

to love is great. to hurt is wrong. but to learn is a power no one can take from you. so pick you truth but know there is someone there to rejoice or repent with you.

Really?!?!? yes but only if your in it with me

I Got....

I Love the Smell of Napalm in the Morning

I awake to the cold that I have for some reason come to love. Even with a wind chill at 14 below where I live, my car struggling to start, and the urge to burn the building down that I work in....my mood is good. Trust me I am just as shocked as you are. I know I have had times like this but I can not remember a stretch of days this long where I have woken up and been able to control my mood.

Now I can't be for sure that putting a piece of cloth around my neck is the reason for this spirtiual awakening. I can tell you that what my dear friend T-Money says in his blog that the tie commands the respect, seems to be the most truth i have heard in a long time.

Now I know what you are all thinking....has Allen toned down, is this the end of an era of priceless rants, could it be he has matured into an adult? To those people i say piss off. If anything i will just have a little more clarity to destroy you with words or make you laugh when i so please.

For the morning cup of Al you all needed I hope this helped. Like a Grande Peppermint Mocha with Whip and Sprinkles Enima. For those that need more. Check out my friend, my agent, and my bitch 2010 Year of the Tie here on blog spot.

Oh yeah, and if your interested tonight find the Wisconsin vs Michigan State college B-Ball game. I will be watching. Will you?

Afternoon Delight brought to you by Safire Jin

Being a rambling idiot is easy. Making it funny with a tie on, now that takes a little skill. Not gonna wait for the whole news cycle. I have a special little lady coming by tonight and thinking to make her watch me write, as hot as i think i look doing it, her not so much.

First because of my previous post lets look to CNN to the article titled "Most don't like their jobs". A study found that only 45% were described as being satisfied with their job; 50% unsatisfied and 5% said that you could take this job and shove it. Now before we go to far i must tell you that 68% of statistics are made up right on the spot. In this blog thats probably accurate 42.3% of the time.

Now that the lawyers are happy.....

This is just truly amazing. 14 month old boy was playing with chop sticks (yeah not gonna go into the wondeful parenting here) and you all know what happens next. Boy falls, chop stick pierced his nose and 4 centimeters of the chop stick was inside his skull. Being they were in a remote part of China they only had a local clinic. So after a 10 (TEN) hour drive to a "real" hospital the story ends well. Boy lives and parents get another chance to be just that parents. No jokes just a good old "ata boy" for that young man.

Vince Vaughn got married this weekend.....why could he have been playing with chop sticks. Oh well, sorry America we get another year of him.

If you get a chance check out a picture of the new crab found off the coast of Taiwan called the Strawberry Crab. It looks delicious!

Ford Motor Co posted a 33% sales gain for December. Put that in your pipe and smoke it Tony!

Did you hear about the 513 pound Tuna that at auction got sold for $177,000. Yeah me either cause I buy my shit at Red Lobster during all you can eat months. Not that Red Lobster would ever want to send a gift card or anything :)

And finally, maybe not news but its my blog and I will cry if I want to. We are deciding whether or not to go see Avatar tonight or rent a movie and do dinner. Now i'm all about being hip and cool now (I mean I am a real boy i mean blogger now). But doesn't it just seem like star wars mixed with smurfs? Kinda creepy to me. I think in a preview I even saw one with a red hat. Does someone at Hanna Barbara know of this.

Well you may get a small post later but if not just remember....my tie is always thick and on a good day it even touches my belly button.

To quote Mr. Kool Aide "Oh Yeah!"

Not enough coffee in the world

With a lack of sleep and a frustration in hand a good release is in order.

It seems to me that people don't take personal responsibility for anything anmore. Whether it is thru work or in their own lives it seems that trait has gone to the way side. Now before I hear about preaching to the choir I do see times in my life that i have thrown responsibility to the side but i must pride myself in saying that it has never been when it could affect someone else. I am a team player and a positive force in any and all relationships.

So you can imagine the frustration I feel when i see this happen in front of me on a daily basis.

Mike your an asshole and a true waste of time, space and money.......Ok i feel a little better now

I bid you two bits and a good night!

So here i am again. To my first fan (Anthony not Tony because i love you) first i love you :) The rants and thoughts are a fantasy in my head and I truly appreciate the time someone gives for that.

So on to the fun stuff kids. I will try to keep it short and sweet althought i know only one person will read and enjoy this.

Sorry for the punctuation but Allen be tired sometimes.

The tie is truly what we have set it out to be. An act. A show. A showing of what I am and who we can be. As i wait for the millions that should, and i hope, follow not only my cause but my well being. I can only explain a few things as of now.

1 - It give you the power to feel and act as if you should be. the power hungry people with positive attitudes will get that

2 - When you sit and fix your tie do it with what your made of......see number 1

3 - To all that read this i hope its a positive thing. my words can be harsh. my thoughts can be not yours. but i can honestly say if they were your words i would give them a cleaning and make sure i took them in before i dismissed them

and finally 4 - to each day i give you my own words. yours are more then welcome back. actually, they are wanted back. it's been to long since a good debate has happened and i hope to share my page, space, time and thought pattern with anyone willing to give the same back.

To all and yours i wish you good night and good luck. but when all else fails just know there is a tie and a place for everything.

2010 is the year of the tie. and i tie it to you all to realize that.

As Craig F says "Put it in you, swish it around, and know the best thing that happened to you is your past. cause your future has been shaped and you did it yourself".

Really?!?!

WolfPack Blitzer News Update by Safire Jin

So many points to hit today in the news such little time. And away we go...

Ok so I understand its winter and I get its cold. But really every damn year I have to see that first story about someone dying from the cold. I am sorry someone died no doubt. But being reported due to the fact that shes 83, living alone, with no heat, and a space heater....Am i suppose to just stop and say Holy Hell Batman did you hear this craziness about the lady who died because it was too cold?!? Yeah my thoughts exactly.

Now we have a third White House party crasher. Not sure how i feel about this. I mean I guess it could be worse. They only guard the nations most important person yet they can't seem to weed out good old Mr. and Mrs. Kaslowski from Cicero? Again all i can say is really?!?!?

Now this one might fall under the pure Allen category but is anyone else tired of Bono? I mean shouldn't he be at home beating his wife and drinking like a good old rock star does (Paul and Ringo were well trained in this area)?

One bone to pick today: CNN Latest News, Article titled "How Tigers Wife Spent the Holidays". To this I can't even say really.. I say you have got to be fucking kidding me.

And finally, 26 year old Jorge Cruz won the national Couch Potato Championships over the weekend at ESPN Zone in New York City. He beat the old record by 19 hours. I mean really Jorge 19 hours thats truly amazing. The only question I have was could you have gone an extra hour if you were wearing a tie?

2010 year of the tie, Tony may the dream live on as far as the windsor may carry you.

Really?!?!?

The Fine 15

Quick one here just cause I can't believe there was a meeting, in a room, with smart people, and this was something that was discussed.

Appearently Time puts out a list of 15 words each year that are to be thrown out of our use because in the previous year we used them too much. Now for me Time is a well respected knowledgable source of many types and formats of media and news. But to know that while we sit in a poor economy, huge jobless rate, massive national debt, global warming (or so they say), foreign relations problems, and national insecurity. Here we are with a list of just 15 words that were over used and are deserving of banishment from our entire vocabulary.

God Bless America! And here is the list so no one panic we can all rest assured that from here in none of these words will bother us ever again....Or at least until 2011.

The complete 2010 list:

1. Shovel-ready
2. Transparent/Transparency
3. Czar
4. Tweet
5. App
6. Sexting
7. Friend as a verb
8. Teachable Moment
9. In These Economic Times...
10. Stimulus
11. Toxic Assets
12. Too Big to Fail
13. Bromance
14. Chillaxin'
15. Obama as a prefix

Work = Pain = Bills = Fog

To think a coporation like mine even allowing this site thru the web?!?!?! I can't log onto my yahoo email but hey lets post all kinds of shit during work hours and see what happens.

Sorry had a moment there.

I wear my nice button down, black pants and tie to work today. Now granted this (compared to the normal dress casual here) is farily advanced for some of these guys. I work with what i say is 80% women and to them this is so over dressed I might as well be James Bond.

Stares and questions within the first 30 minutes of my arrival. I explain to some of them what is going on. Why 2010 is the year of the tie (I quote Tony here and respect the copyright, just know I didn't think of the idea but use it professionally and with great respect).

No one seems to see the light....Except for one young lady. We will call her Kay. She loves the idea. Not only does she love it but is truly amazed someone that i hang out with would think of something as interesting as that.....I questioned if that was a knock on me or Tony more. Still haven't decided yet but I will just take it as we are smart and she is shocked.

The one thing I do notice is that the people who don't know me here do seem almost intimidated by me. I have gotten more "Hello's" this morning then I can remember. Well it is only 9:15 am and I have a whole day left of disappointment. With that I guess I give you my first update.

This writing shit is not going to help my wrist.

Mission in life??

Well with the introduction of 2010 and a tie I have now become part of the new age. I am a blogger. Lord help us all.

If you know me personally then you will know how against all this I am. Not that i don't love my freedom of speech cause lord knows I use it. Not because the Internet is a place where all will come to say and do as you please. Just because i feel i am old school and change sucks.

I would go thru the past 3 days but i could care less if you know about it. I will struggle to pull you thru this and in the end you will thank me.

The whole point here is to react to my friend Tony. He has started a mission to wear a tie for 365 days and see how it will or won't affect his life or the situations in it. I thought about writing on his blog occasionally almost as a counter point. In the end i thought it would be better for his to be his and mine to........ well who knows but mine will be something.

I will attempt to stay on point here.

I will dive into this social test with him and sometimes even against him. In the end my hope is for someone to pay attention to us and to answer the age old question that at one point or another everyone reading this has asked themselves.....To Tie or Not To Tie?