I just want to see what i'm working with here

A fool proof plan. Have a few drinks. Stay up a little later. And sleep thru the night with no thoughts and no worries. Not so much. I shot out of bed this morning at 4:18am. I know the exact time because....well i'm not sure why i remember that. But i do. Damp, cold, and this time slightly shaking. I don't have an answer anymore. Sleep seems like a distant mirage that as i run towards it, it takes a giant step back only to leave me where i was. At 4:18am in the morning dripping with sweat sometimes the only thing you have is your thoughts. Funny cause thats where all this begins. I beat myself down. I get frustrated. I get upset. As you lose control you hit a point of comfort. Or at least I do. A point where you know this is the last emotion before you will be over it and willing to move on. Unfortunately for me my mind is not your normal processing center. It is a super generated, high speed internet, multi-tasking, super conductor power station...on speed, coke, and steroids. So you know slightly above average. As i run a mile a minute in my head i come to a thought that slams me in my tracks...did i turn the heater off in the garage. I can't sleep, my dreams are running my sleep, and i am wet. BUT NOOOOO my concern right now is the fucking heater in my garage. I turn off the heater because of course i am right. jump back into what i consider now my water bed and even if it was only for two hours..i sleep. No thoughts. No dreams. Nothing. Just sleep. Usually i have a nice quote or a connection with a smart and wise point. I dont for this. To whoever or whatever cause me to do that even if only for a moment, thank you. I can't disappoint though so i will leave you with a quote anyway.
"In thoughts from the visions of the night, when deep sleep falleth on men..." ~Job 4:13.
Maybe even he had trouble sleeping. If so maybe its not too bad after all.